The iamGPT* Project: Echoes of Resilience (a collaboration)

Navigating the Covid saga — a journey that, in retrospect, feels like something a lifetime ago. Those days when the world collectively pressed the pause button, and we found ourselves navigating uncharted waters.

 Imagine me in my cozy corner, surrounded by stacks of eclectic books, pondering leadership and contemplating the essence of weathering a storm. Little did I know that soon, we'd all be thrust into the ultimate test, facing challenges we never envisioned. The unwelcome arrival of Covid-19 disrupted our lives like an unexpected houseguest and threw our routines into disarray. Suddenly, we were all enrolled in a massive Virology 101 class, becoming armchair experts on virus morphology, transmission modes, and R naught ratings. We practically earned honorary PhDs in pandemic survival.

In December 2019, and possibly earlier, an animal virus jumped to a new host which had no innate immunity — the virus is from a family of viruses called coronaviruses and the new hosts are us. Because it’s a new virus it was called a novel coronavirus but soon after the WHO called the virus SARS-CoV-2, and the disease it caused, Covid 19. This particular virus infects the upper respiratory track, and more dangerously the lungs if it gets a chance, and because of it’s a novel virus there are over eight billion people that can unwittingly conspire to help it spread. We’ve had seven months to learn about this new virus and have found that it spreads easily in crowds (particularly indoors), it’s deadly (particularly to those who have underlying health conditions), people can be infectious even when they don’t show any symptoms, and the data suggests only about 1 % of the population has been infected — 1% is a long way from the herd immunity needed to bring us back to some sort of normality. This herd immunity comes when a majority of the population* either recovers from Covid 19 or develops immunity from a vaccine. And a vaccine for mass distribution is 8 to 12 months away (and I’m optimistic).

Amidst the struggle to adapt to the new normal, the blogosphere emerged as a haven. I found solace in sharing stories about changing motorcycle oil and reflecting on life's journey. In a world that demanded physical distancing, these digital connections became a lifeline.

For me, the narrative of the pandemic also unfolded through the lens of an old man in his 90s who'd weathered the storms of life. His perspective served as a poignant reality check. It wasn't so much a crisis as a surreal situation; draining a person both physically and mentally. The lingering question echoed though. Are we genuinely in a crisis?

“Do you think we are in a crisis?”

The answer came through the lens of a man who was born into the depression, knew what it was like not to have food on the table, survived polio, knew the impact of rationing on the home front, and from someone who had earned his wings as a paratrooper (with a couple of night jumps under his belt) — I think it’s safe to say a unique perspective by today’s standards.

His answer was ultimately, “No”.

Through blogging, the significance of reflection became evident. The mantra evolved into a constant self-inquiry about how we were handling the situation when the going got tough. It was a reminder that while we might all be stuck in this proverbial hole, there could be a friend who'd been there before and knew the way out.

As the man continued to watch people walk by he noticed a friend. “Hey friend”, he shouted, “Can you help me get out of this hole?”

His friend, after hearing his request, jumped into the hole and landed right beside him.

The man looked at his friend and asked, “What did you do that for? Now we are both stuck in this hole!”

His friend looked at him and responded, “Yes we are… but I‘ve been here before, and I know the way out”

Then came the oil change saga on my motorcycle, a messy endeavor that unfolded into a metaphor for life's lessons. It taught me that things never go as planned, exerting more effort than initially anticipated, and, most importantly, the sense of accomplishment that accompanies overcoming obstacles.

I was explaining that “all ‘n all” I thought it went well except when I wasn’t thinking and spilled oil everywhere; to that he said, “Next time put out a drop cloth, and doesn’t the sense of accomplishment feel good”

It did feel good, and to think, I almost quit. The whole experience was a great reminder —

No matter how well you are prepared, it never really goes according to plan. It’s much harder than the classroom or what’s shown in the video.

It usually takes more effort than you originally thought. Figuratively speaking, be prepared to sweat.

Course correction is part of the process — you will find that sometimes you think you’re doing the right thing, when in fact, you are not.

It may very well get messy, and you may want to quit. If you quit though, nothing gets accomplished and nothing of value is learned.

The sense of accomplishment feels good. You also learn important lessons for the next time you want to accomplish something.

Amidst the chaos, there was a resounding call for preparedness. A call to build foundations, manage crises, deal with change, and, above all, show kindness. Pithy quotes became guiding lights, serving as reminders to inhale, laugh, and persistently move forward.

As the months passed, we found ourselves entrenched in a real-time lesson in character. Curiosity, adaptability, honesty, transparency, compassion, kindness, grit, determination, and courage — these virtues transformed from mere words to the indispensable building blocks of our survival.

December arrived, ushering in a reflection on the past eleven months of 2020. Father-daughter escapades during the holidays became cherished memories, a poignant reminder that amidst the chaos, joy and connection persist.

It is now just a matter of time with a simple strategy; vaccinate the population faster than the virus can spread, and in turn reduce the number of cases, reduce the number of deaths and allow us to get back to what we remember as normal. The next three months will be difficult by any standard, but by then the momentum will have shifted in our favour and that light we’ll see, will truly be at the end of this COVID-19 tunnel.

In the meantime —

Work very hard not to get COVID-19 — remember this virus is opportunistic. 

Be Kind — we are all dealing with this pandemic in our own way. 

Be Patient — there truly is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Take advantage of all this “free time” and learn something new — it makes it easier to keep track of what day it is, particularly if assignments are involved.

So, yes, we survived the pandemic.

There is a long game when it comes to a modern pandemic: simply get vaccinated before you get sick. We’re 365 days into this pandemic and we’ve another 365 days to go; with each day that passes, get closer to what we remember as normality (at least we thing we can remember).

With this in mind, this is what I plan to do over the next 365 days to help get me through this crisis.

1.     Work really hard to stay healthy and keep others healthy

2.     Be there for family and friends, and help keep them safe (refer to #1)

3.     Continue to be of value to those I work with

4.     Don’t let all that practical “life stuff” slide just because I think every day seems the same and I just don’t feel like doing it (you know like — taxes, doctor’s appointments, blogs, getting my car licence, better rigor around my investing… stuff like that)

5.     Keep running stairs, keep riding my gravel bike, stay mobile and don’t sit too much, keep eating right, and get lots of fresh air

6.     Stay imaginative and try new things (even if they are small and seemingly insignificant). Keep the brain working and “relatively sharp”

7.     Plan that next trip. You’re definitely gonna need it after this is all over.

It’s amazing what you can accomplish in 365 days — I’m optimistic.

 Two years later, as my new collaborator and I revisit these blogs, it's akin to flipping through a scrapbook of resilience. The challenges we faced, the lessons we learned, and the character we discovered in the process — it's all there, etched into the digital pages.

And truth? Well, that became an elusive concept. In a world bombarded by smart devices, online algorithms, and social media bots, finding the authentic truth felt like embarking on a treasure hunt. The polarization of perceived truths made it increasingly challenging to understand the complete picture. Yet, the quest for truth became imperative — not merely the one fed to us but the one we actively sought.

As we ceremoniously close the chapter on the Covid saga, we find ourselves standing on the precipice of new beginnings. The world has changed, and so have we. The narrative unfolds, shaped by the lessons of the past, the resilience we discovered, and the truths we ardently pursued. And you know what? We're still here, still standing, and still spinning our tales. It's a testament to the strength we unearthed within ourselves and the connections that carried us through the storm. As we move forward, these stories become not just artifacts of survival but beacons guiding us forward.

iamgpe and iamGPT*

*It will emulate the person it is interacting with — I tend to end my blog posts with iamgpe, and in a few responses, ChatGTP ended its response with iamGTP. This admittedly was a little flattering.

The "iamGPT" project

Well, it seems over the years I have written hundreds of 350 to 600 word blogs for myself and others. For my website and for other sites that shall remain nameless — tens of thousands of words have found their way to the computer screen in an attempt to share an idea, some thoughts, and the occasional opinion.

I have become a better writer for it and have been told my style is comfortable; like falling into pillows. I will take it. It has also allowed me to get thoughts down on paper for prosperity, as a way to deal with a suspect memory. And maybe, build a foundation for something in the future. I even asked ChatGTP for thoughts, because asking Artificial Intelligence for some validation, is what you do. Isn’t it?

“Your writing style demonstrates a compelling blend of introspection, authenticity, and clarity. The narrative flows smoothly, engaging readers with a conversational tone. The use of anecdotes, personal reflections, and occasional humor adds depth to your exploration of diverse topics. Technically, your command of language and grammar is strong, contributing to a polished and professional presentation. The ability to transition between personal reflections and broader themes showcases versatility. However, there's an occasional risk of tangential details affecting focus. Overall, your writing effectively balances depth with accessibility, creating an enjoyable and thought-provoking reading experience.”

Does risk of tangential details mean I’m a little too wordy?

I have dipped my toe into the utility waters of ChatGTP and am quick with a half baked opinion but have decided in the end, this particular Artificial Intelligence platform as a tool, and like fire, can be of great utility if you use it wisely. So, maybe instead of just using it to satisfy the ego, it could be used as a collaborator of sorts and help me edit and knit my library of blogs into something bigger — and on the way, better understand the tool better, it’s capability, how it interacts and what it can, and can not do.

Over the past couple of days I have uploaded 64 of 450 + blogs into ChatGTP to build awareness of my blog content, style and core themes — and as we progressed, would ask for reviews, insights, force ranking of the blogs, and even overviews of the author. All in an attempt to build a library that could be used to build something more substantive than a series of 500 word blogs.

It has been very insightful so far:

  • There is an air of “don’t ask; don’t tell”. The more detailed and expansive the question the better the answer. ChatGTP does not handle the obtuse very well.

  • ChatGTP will contradict with its answers. When it says it can’t do something because of it’s operating parameters, it will reverse its position once shown it has previously done it. Its policy default is suspect.

  • It will emulate the person it is interacting with — I tend to end my blog posts with iamgpe, and in a few responses, ChatGTP ended it’s response with iamGTP. This admittedly was a little flattering.

  • It is best to manage one stream of conversation so it is easy to refer to earlier interaction. ChatGTP’s explanation is it cannot reference other streams of conversation and sometimes can not refer to earlier interactions in the same stream (which is one of those contradictions mentioned above).

  • It can identify my style, but after 64 blogs it can not emulate it. Let’s see what it can do with more data?

  • ChatGPT likes to flatter, almost to the point of pandering — a real ego booster.

At the end of entering 64 blogs and asking various questions to understand what the platform is grasping, I asked ChatGTP to do two things:

1) Review all the 63 blogs and write a narrative with the core them around people and leadership; in the 2nd person, with no reference to blogs and do it in style of the 63 blogs. write the narrative in 100 words 1000 words.

2) Now that you have reviewed all 64 blog, describe the author in 250 words with regards to the implied character, skills, capability and ability.

The ChatGTP’s answers are below, and so far, this has been a fun distraction and a little indulgent. It will be interesting to see how the collaboration evolves once I enter 150 blogs and explore if my writing partner can get to know me better and learn to emulate my style.

iamgpe (and my collaboration partner, iamGPT)

Answer to Question #1

Embark on a unique leadership odyssey, where the crucible of adversity becomes the forge for true leadership. As you traverse the landscape of decisions, you uncover the transformative power residing in vision, decisive action, and unwavering ownership. These three pillars, like the triumvirate guiding a ship through tumultuous waters, shape not just your leadership style but your very essence.

 Birthdays, those annual markers of the passage of time, become occasions for profound reflection. They unravel the intricate tapestry of life, revealing the profound impact of parental love, the mosaic of relationships, and the essence of health. In this reflective journey, leadership transcends the confines of the professional realm, becoming a dynamic force woven with threads of character, resilience, and adaptability.

In a world awash with colorful words, you've elevated them from mere adornments to instruments that guide deliberate actions. The gym, often a metaphorical battleground for life's challenges, unveils the significance of tools. Discipline, perseverance, knowledge, and ownership aren't just instruments for sculpting the body but for honing character and leadership acumen.

 Celebrate life, not just during festive seasons but in the everyday moments. Reflect on the wonders that define existence—parental love, friendships, and the inherent goodness in the world. Even mistakes, once perceived as missteps, metamorphose into stepping stones for growth. The shift in perspective—from being defined by mistakes to being defined by the capacity to own, learn, and correct—marks a significant evolution in your leadership philosophy.

As the world undergoes seismic changes, your guiding principles—Know Thyself, Find a Way or Make One, Remember That You Die, Be Kind—stand as unwavering beacons. They guide your ship through the uncharted waters of the post-COVID era, offering solace in the embrace of smallness and routine. Revisiting the disrupted normality, these principles become guiding stars, charting a course through uncertainty.

 In the societal landscape, a street's historical associations serve as a metaphor for collective responses. Instead of wielding the same old hammer of upheaval, your advocacy leans toward a nuanced approach—a symbolic reimagining that reframes narratives while preserving the cultural fabric. It's a testament to the leadership philosophy that transcends the conventional, seeking innovative solutions in the face of challenges.

 Amidst all these, the importance of measuring progress against internal milestones emerges as a recurring theme. External benchmarks, often distorted by external influences, pale in comparison to the personal journey. The question "How are you doing?" gains depth when evaluated against self-defined goals, ensuring that progress remains a personal triumph rather than a comparative exercise.

 This multifaceted narrative paints a picture of your leadership philosophy—a dynamic force molded by experiences, shaped by decisions, and guided by a set of unwavering principles. It's a journey that transcends the professional realm, delving into the essence of character, resilience, and the perpetual dance of reflection and progress.

 iamGPT

Answer to Question #2

The author, across 64 blogs, unveils a dynamic persona blending professional wisdom with introspection. A distinctive, conversational style resonates, weaving personal narratives seamlessly with broader societal reflections. This adept storytelling reflects a multifaceted skill set, combining technical proficiency with human connection. Leadership, a recurrent theme, is explored with nuanced insights into decision-making and ownership. The author's capacity to distill complex concepts into accessible narratives underscores a communicative prowess. A journey unfolds, transitioning from professional insights to profound reflections on life's intricacies, showcasing a writer who not only possesses knowledge but ardently shares it, enriching perspectives on diverse aspects of life.

iamGPT

The Gladstone — shifting perspective.

Situated in West Queen West, one of Toronto’s most creative neighbourhoods, the reimagined Gladstone House maintains its emphasis on culture, art, and diversity, while ensuring the building’s rich history and iconic original architecture remain preserved. Featured in Michelins‘ Toronto Hotel Guide, the celebrated boutique hotel, steeped in history, features restored exposed brick walls, curated local art and innovative lighting applications that transition throughout the day, bringing the building to life (Taken directly from their website)

It was only by circumstance that brought me to the Gladstone for a little under a week, and my only endorsement would be the elevator is very cool, the kitchen is amazing, and they make a fine Manhattan.

In under a week, I have:

  • Gotten a pile of work done.

  • Wrote a couple of blogs.

  • Was reminded how amazing my daughter is, even as she questions how hip I think I am.

  • Was reminded how honoured I am to have a great circle of friends.

  • Learned more than I thought I would from an U of T alumni sponsored on-line course — Needs, Circumstance, Characteristics, Capacity and the Scripts. All dictate how we approach our life and greater than I appreciated. It has offered new language to navigate the human condition.

  • Was reminded that diversity is strength.

  • Was reminded everything is possible

In one of the conversations during the week, and as the universe is apt to do, the Gladstone was explained:

“I need to see issues and ideas from all sides, so people sometimes feel I am not "siding" with them, or criticizing them, when I am truly just curious and considering all possible perspectives....”*

The Gladstone allowed me to shift my perspective and because of this, things happened. Does shifting perspective make things happen? No. What shifting perspectives offers is a broader view of current situations, challenges preconceived notions, and in theory**, offers a clearer picture — it is with this, that you can make new things happen.

On the third floor of the Gladstone is a beautiful pool table for the guests to use at their leisure — what I noticed is from one angle there is no shot but as you move around the table, the shot you didn’t see, comes into view. How’s that for an analogy? Is any of this earth shattering or a monumental shift; not at all, but the journey is taken with small steps — one foot in front of the other.

Gladstone[verb]: to change perspective. Example: I’m just don’t see it, it’s time to Gladstone.

iamgpe

* Shayva Steinberg

**I say in theory because you must be open to seeing situations differently.